how was your summer?

Staying busy has certainly been a help for me. 

Staying focused on a task is a diversion from pain. Even as I type the word pain, I start to crumble. Pain could consume me if I let it. 

Back to school is such a busy time each and every year. This year seems more so. It might not really be busier, but it is the first year ever that I've gone back without Ron's support. 

Everyone's greeting is "How was your summer?" 

To be honest, it was better than I thought it would be. Mainly because I stayed busy, and busy brought focus.

My inclination is to respond with "Great!" or "Fantastic!" I've always believed that we set the tone for our days. But I'm trying to be more honest with myself in this time that won't hit the 5 month mark for a few more days. 

So, I'm fine. Really I am. I'm nowhere near great, however. 

I'm coping.

I'm managing. 

But it was a summer of firsts. Even the exciting ones (like moving) were accompanied by painful moments (or minutes or hours), because they were firsts. 

Life will be full of firsts for a while. 




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  1. Love, Birsy, and praying for grace and comfort for you daily

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  2. So honest! Praying you can find moments of busyness and you can move through tge hours of pain and loneliness

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  3. Praying for you 🙏 ❤

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  4. You are in my thoughts and prayers! My summer was way to short. I worked part time at my other job, went to Garden City beach and then to the Outer Banks. I’m not ready to go back to school yet, working both jobs 10 hours a day! But I guess I better get ready, start back at OT next week and then both jobs the following week. I hope you have a much better school year! Prayers for strength,peace, and comfort! We miss you at OT!

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